Today is the last Sunday of the regular season for the NFL. I absolutely love football season. There was a time that I could quote stats, knew all the players on my beloved Houston Oilers, and got so involved in the games that I actually cried when the Oilers blew a lead and lost to the much hated Buffalo Bills. Sadly, I think they still hold the record for blowing the largest lead to lose a game in NFL history.
Since that loss I have not allowed my heart to be so invested in a game that devastation over a loss is a possibility. The season is really representative of something more personal and it has only been in the last four years that I have come to understand the connection I feel.
My dad was a quiet man. He worked hard to provide for his family but, for many reasons that are now unimportant, he was content being a bystander in the activities of family life. He enjoyed just watching and listening to those he loved live their lives. Football was one of the things that connected us. I discovered this more as an adult living across the country from him. We didn't always support the same teams, but I was able to discuss the game, the players and who was likely to go to the Superbowl with him. Even during his last days we watched football together.
Each September, as the the teams hit the grid iron once more, these sweet memories signal the beginning of my favorite time of year and remind me that it is through simple human connections people live on forever .
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Meatloaf and Cookies
No, I didn't eat these two things together, but I did have them both in the same evening. It was wonderful.
In keeping with the promise to myself to write everyday, the above sentence is the only thing I wrote yesterday, January 2, 2010. My train of thought was interrupted and then I forgot the point I was making. Then, I fell asleep. This dedication to writing daily is going to be difficult.
Lesson learned on day #1 - don't wait until the end of the day to write; being awake while typing is not only advantageous it is a necessity.
In keeping with the promise to myself to write everyday, the above sentence is the only thing I wrote yesterday, January 2, 2010. My train of thought was interrupted and then I forgot the point I was making. Then, I fell asleep. This dedication to writing daily is going to be difficult.
Lesson learned on day #1 - don't wait until the end of the day to write; being awake while typing is not only advantageous it is a necessity.
Friday, January 1, 2010
Begin at the Beginning
I want to write everyday. It is January first, the day that promises are made for the upcoming year. I could promise myself that I am going to write something everyday, but eventually I would miss a day, then two, then three, then before I know it a month has gone by and no words have been recorded.
I have the same problems in other areas of my life, so I need to get to the heart of the issue. It can summed up in one word: focus. I suffer from a chronic lack of focus. Dangle something shiny and pretty in front of me and off I go, chasing another rabbit. How can I maintain my spontaneous creativity and still get all my daily tasks done? I don't know but I am going to try.
I have broken my life down into three categories I will focus on in 2010:
Myself
My husband, family & friends
Yarntopia.
When I focus on myself I will take care of myself physically & mentally; I will do some things that bring me pleasure; I will create; and I will write. All of these things contribute to my well being.
Next come family and friends. I give a lot to customers and rarely have emotional energy left over for my husband and friends. My thought is that if I take better care of myself and my emotional health then there will be something to give to my family. I am hoping. After family comes my friends. I have allowed many relationships to slip away and I truly regret the loss. Last night a friend that I haven't seen in nearly 20 years found me on Facebook. I am so excited and can hardly wait to see her again. What an amazing way to end the year! Friends deserve my focus.
And finally I will focus on Yarntopia. 2009 found me spending much time on freeform crochet, crochet design and self promotion. While this was fun and exciting it did nothing to build Yarntopia. This year Yarntopia will be the center of my professional world. I will still do creative crochet and the things that give me joy, I simply won't do them at the expense of working for the shop. Amy and I have big plans for the shop and it will require my full focus.
Writing, at this point, is for me. In the future I hope the writing to benefit Yarntopia, but for now it is just for me.
And so it begins.....
I have the same problems in other areas of my life, so I need to get to the heart of the issue. It can summed up in one word: focus. I suffer from a chronic lack of focus. Dangle something shiny and pretty in front of me and off I go, chasing another rabbit. How can I maintain my spontaneous creativity and still get all my daily tasks done? I don't know but I am going to try.
I have broken my life down into three categories I will focus on in 2010:
Myself
My husband, family & friends
Yarntopia.
When I focus on myself I will take care of myself physically & mentally; I will do some things that bring me pleasure; I will create; and I will write. All of these things contribute to my well being.
Next come family and friends. I give a lot to customers and rarely have emotional energy left over for my husband and friends. My thought is that if I take better care of myself and my emotional health then there will be something to give to my family. I am hoping. After family comes my friends. I have allowed many relationships to slip away and I truly regret the loss. Last night a friend that I haven't seen in nearly 20 years found me on Facebook. I am so excited and can hardly wait to see her again. What an amazing way to end the year! Friends deserve my focus.
And finally I will focus on Yarntopia. 2009 found me spending much time on freeform crochet, crochet design and self promotion. While this was fun and exciting it did nothing to build Yarntopia. This year Yarntopia will be the center of my professional world. I will still do creative crochet and the things that give me joy, I simply won't do them at the expense of working for the shop. Amy and I have big plans for the shop and it will require my full focus.
Writing, at this point, is for me. In the future I hope the writing to benefit Yarntopia, but for now it is just for me.
And so it begins.....
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